The Art of Self Sacrifice.🧡

Sitting on the floor of my room, breastfeeding my 8 month old daughter when my eyes find themselves staring at something.

My telescope, a gift I got from my sister, one of the best gifts I’ve EVER received, no doubt!

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My love for the stars is so profound because this is where I feel most at home, I don’t feel lost or misplaced when I’m staring into the celestial abode.

Watching each star glimmer, imagining what celestial body it is.

Searching for my favorite constellations, there is always so much love.

I remember waking up at 4 am most mornings just to watch Venus rise and glitter through the dark morning sky, it brought me such joy and awe I could never find words to describe, I felt in union with myself and with all that is.

I would talk to the stars and thank them for constantly gracing me with such beauty to admire, whilst never asking for anything in return.

The love of my life is the Moon, I call him ‘Moonman’ as I feel serenaded by him.

I always say I’m married to him, that in a lifetime, lifetimes away, when I was the Sun and he was the Moon, we were lovers serving our galactic roles in a different universe out there.

Fast forward a few years and I find myself longing for a child, for a daughter specifically.

Life paves a way for me and she arrives, she traveled dimensions to meet me here.

The magical story of how I dreamt my daughter into life is one for another day. To sum it up I had her name ready about four years before she arrived and so many synchronous moments opened the portals for her arrival.

Being a Mom is no easy task, I could go on for days elucidating.

Motherhood is an existence full of sacrifice and bottomless joy.

My love for the stars, as powerful as it is, had to take a backseat when my daughter arrived, everything did.

My beautiful telescope now has spiderwebs on it and I feel the need to visit my celestial friends soon.

Learning to balance Motherhood and Self-hood is proving to be tricky but it is very vital.

One cannot lose themselves in any role.

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Self Love over all.